A Broken

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Have patience with those around you;
Humans are made to survive,
but not to thrive,
on the life of a broken heart.
Have patience with yourself;
you can survive,
even if it doesn’t feel like you can thrive,
on the life of a broken heart.

Fake

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The first boy to tell me he would marry me got engaged today. The second boy lives in a city and pours coffee for strangers. These are the only facts I know about these ghosts who once vowed to always stay alive from so long ago and I try to take back every promise I gave them, not because I am angry but because I want to claim that feeling that no longer is theirs to remember as year after year we grow older and colder but our lives have gone such wildly different ways I’m so glad every kiss I gave turned out to be fake.

Am I

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Am I free
from those ropes
that left their burn
as I cope
with scars I find
in each story behind
that turn my head
away from my hope
as I stumble and trip
and lose my grip
to slide back
into a pit
where faces spit
words that simmer
into my skin,
am I free,
am I free,
or have I fallen
in too deep?

In a Time

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I have not felt the night air in a time,
I have not been reminded of
nights swinging solo under a single lamp,
willing myself not to jump,
not to let go,
not to plummet without control.
I have not felt the weight of that moons shine.
Or those stars that used to be mine,
the ones that whispered there was nothing else.
The ones that pushed me to push myself,
The ones which were almost the last to see.
I have not felt the night air in a time,
but tonight, I let in the chill, sharp and dark,
tonight I saw a solo swing in the rock.
The one that held me so close,
the one that left my fingers frozen
to a feeling that didn’t belong.
I have not felt the night air in a time,
but I have felt what is mine,
how the moon changes colour in season,
how the stars shine as they fall,
how the fireflies only glow in the black.
I have not felt the night air in a time,
but I have felt what is mine.